Do you know what it feels like?

I never meant for it to be this way.

My eyes open wide, pupils dilate rapidly against the brutal light. Clear. Absent. Wasteful. My eyes see nothing, and nothing surrounds me.

My heart sinks further into my stomach. I may be sick. I may be scared. I may be lost. What is wrong with my world, this world that surrounds me?

My hands grasp something, I don’t know what. It’s firm. It’s air. It’s nothing. Nothing scares me, and I am surrounded by nothing.

My skin tingles as we lock eyes. Fire. Water. Wind. Everything is changing, change surrounds me, and I am never the one who changes.

I never meant for it to be this way.